Psychology of Me Pt. 1

June 7, 2010


The Question: What made you decide to change your mind?

The Answer:

The human mind has always been apt to change. However, when one's mind only knows one way, one lifestyle, or one manner, it is then that their mind finds it hard to adapt to any other way of thinking or living for that matter. It becomes extremely hard for one to break the chain that they have become so accustomed to over their lifetime. Myself, well I’ve figured out how to break that chain. I’ve discovered the mind’s worst enemy. The one thing that overpowers thoughts of any kind. The enemy that is strong enough to break even the most embedded cycles of living. The enemy that is superior to all beings and of course makes all of the mind’s possible thoughts inferior. That discovery is the one thing no one will ever be able to understand. The worst enemy of the mind is none other than the heart.

The mind often contemplates myriads of issues, thoughts, and problems. It is overwhelmed by possibilities and hindered by consequences and obstacles. I fail to have the desire to say the mind is its own game whose rules change at its own discretion. But the mind lives outside itself wandering as its own being, affected by numerous factors with results that end with the choice of either making or breaking the person it belong to. The number of thoughts and types of thoughts that can enter one’s mind can be, for a lack of better terms, mind-boggling.

The question that has currently entered my mind is whether emotions belong to the mind or the heart. This battle of who they belong to is only solved by stating that the mind’s only connection to emotion is its recognition of what emotion(feeling) is and understanding it. The heart’s connection to the term emotion is the actual execution of the emotion; however, the battle returns to the mind and poses another question: how can emotion be executed if it does not know what the feeling is? However, for some strange reason, the heart always seems to win, leaving human beings to feel that the heart has ultimate power. Could this possibly be because the execution of an emotion has more intensity than just a mere thought of understanding what emotion is?

The next thought that has intrigued my memory is the reason for beginning to write and that reason was my imagination. I was vividly imagining standing before the Director of Psychology at Rochester Institute of Technology. I had imagined him asking me, “What made me change my mind?” Now, my mind had, as it always seemed to do, wandered to random thoughts of Long Island University and theatre and horses galloping in an open field. More of a space cadet pattern of thought, if you will. Let’s not leave out any detail as the director had seemed to have been looking down on me as if I were inferior and he was superior for an unknown reason. I had imagined this happening as if were currently occurring. But this imagination had come, as they say, out-of-the-blue. Or had it? Could I have been subconsciously thinking of the most recent and recurring conversation of attending R.I.T. to study psychology, triggered by my father? Most likely that was where that imagination originated.

Imagination is a powerful concept. It becomes strikingly overwhelming and oftentimes baffling as to how the human mind works and why it operates the way it does. Now, while it is very much possible for me to sit here and write based on research and facts, I choose not to. It is much more powerful, profound, effective, and has much more meaning and impact if I dare to write as the mind thinks and based on past personal experiences. I find that the human mind becomes more interested if it can be nosy and pry into another person’s life and understand that someone else has problems that relate to me. Because of this, I can possibly take what they have done and apply it to my life and in turn, people optimistically have the hope and belief that their situation will change for the better.