I Ain't Missing You

It's so sad but very empowering.

My heart feels like it's breaking but I can't describe the feeling.
You have lifted me up and have helped me to grow and open my eyes to the tragedies and empowering moments in life.
There's a message that lies under the physical realities that I see.
I can't resist the feeling to speak to you from my heart anymore.
I ain't missing you...no matter what I may say.
I loved you once.

I felt I needed you every second of every minute of every hour of every day.
I would breathe you with every breath.
I prayed for you more than myself.
I couldn't catch my breath when you were around.
I didn't know what to say when I was with you.
And it is truly my heart that is breaking.
But I ain't missing you at all.
Since we left each other, you've left my mind.
I have thoughts of our love and triumph.
I have feelings in my heart of our life and happiness.
As tears roll from my eyes, I lie to myself and say I ain't missing you.
The winds are blowing and life is changing.
We never went beyond our friendship yet I felt a deeper connection.
Thinking about you drives me insane because I'm not with you.
I'm losing this fight.
I know my heart is breaking with each day since you've been gone.
But I ain't missing you tonight.
No I ain't missing you at all.
My mind is confused and running side by side with my heart.
My heart is cold and hurting.
I lost my best friend.
I can't believe I let us go.
Everytime I think of us I push away any memories.
I shut us out as if we never happened.
You're so far away and a storm brews within my heart and drives me wild.
My heart is breaking.
But I ain't missing you tonight.
No I ain't missing you at all.